Hi, and welcome to my story! I’m Charlotte, and being Charlotte means being a…
- designer & stylist
- substitute teacher
- current graduate student in secondary education
- proud Australian Shepherd fur mama
- planner and bullet journal addict
- mediocre photographer
- coffee and wine aficionado
- comfy fashion enthusiast
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About This Blog
Real talk: there is nothing more difficult than writing an autobiographical description of yourself when you’re going through a major life transition that’s completely redefining who you are as a person. Where do I even start? The very beginning doesn’t seem right, since that was the origin story of someone I no longer am. At the same time, starting in the middle doesn’t feel honest, since what I experienced before now has certainly shaped the person I’m becoming. And I can’t very well skip to the end when there are still so many chapters of my story that have yet to be written.
So: I’ll start right here. We’re in the midst of the rising action after a major turning point that redefined this narrative. Our protagonist — yours truly — has just gone through a transformational experience of character development that forever changed her goals, values, and identity. She has stepped on to a new path, redirecting the plot and overhauling the cast. She’s recovering from those past experiences, but she’s determined to strive forward to accomplish her new goals, using the knowledge and lessons she’s gained thus far to do so.
What’s the story so far? You may never know all the details, since the those first few chapters are over and the story has moved on. What I will share is the following: I’m a former fashion student and pattern-maker who established an internet-based career as a model, social media influencer, and internationally-recognized artist. I was experiencing exponential success: collaborating with huge brand names and companies, traveling the country to appear as a guest lecturer, signing book deals, and more… but I was doing so at the expense of my physical and mental health. I became addicted to my work while simultaneously draining myself of creative motivation. Due to the pressure I was putting on myself, driven by an obsessive need to be perfect and ensure my financial stability, I couldn’t complete a project without a consequential panic attack during the process. Quite literally, the stress was killing me.
Fortunately, I realized that before it was too late. I took a step back, realized my life had turned into something I never wanted it to be, and I made the biggest decision I had ever faced. I decided to start over. Completely.
I hit that proverbial reset button with fierce, feverish desperation. I shut down my career as a model and influencer. I deleted all of my social media accounts, obliterating a network of hundreds of thousands of followers. I cancelled all of my brand collaborations, my modeling jobs, my guest appearances, my book deals. I wanted it gone. I wanted a fresh start, free from the pressure and anxiety that had become the foundation of that career. It wasn’t the life I’d wanted, and I’d lost so much of myself in the process of pursuing it.
Immediately after, I took a much-needed sabbatical of self-discovery. I disconnected from as much of the world as possible so I could reconnect with my soul. Who was I? What did I want from life? I asked myself question after question, exploring facets of myself that I’d long-since forgotten or otherwise lost sight of in the last several years. To put it in perspective: I’d lost so much of who I was that I didn’t know how to speak to other people as me rather than my social media brand. I didn’t even know what my favorite food was anymore. I felt like a shadow, and it was only through that isolated journey that I was able to breathe color back into my identity.
That journey has led me here. Starting a blog was something I always dreamed of doing, but that former career path made it impossible. Now, however, it’s vital to me. My story is one that is all-too relatable for fellow artists and workaholics, and if possible, I want to help others avoid the debilitating circumstances I experienced — or, if they’ve reached that point, be able to recover from it as I do the same. I want to share my progress as I reconnect with my creative hobbies for pleasure rather than profession. I want to share the truth that recovery from artistic burnout is possible, and that stress and anxiety do not have to define a person. I want to share my thoughts, realizations, and advice as I rediscover myself, and maybe, just maybe, help someone else rediscover their own self, too.
Welcome to my new beginning.